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Graduation

2009-05-04T22:31:00.002-05:00

Oy, it's been three months since I've blogged?? Where did the time go?
I'm finally graduating from the School of Social Work. Well, at least I'm going through the ceremony. I have to finish my practicum hours and I still have one elective to take this summer. But, it's one step closer. This week is hell as I finish my final papers and I have three TONS of writing to do. I have to admit I just don't care anymore. I am over school and burned out. It's been a great experience, don't get me wrong.....I'm just mentally checked out.

I'm dreaming of a vacation. At this point I don't care where just as long as it doesn't involve work, school, or slave labor. I think I have David (Hardt) convinced that we need to take a trip after the YDA convention. And, we will only take people we like on the trip. :-)

Found out a relative has cancer. Not sure what the prognosis is at this point, just sad for that person. Praying it is all ok soon.

God is good.

that's what friends are for

2009-02-10T11:45:00.003-06:00

Lots of good things happening in my world right now. And lots of not so good things happening in the lives of several close friends. I'm finding it hard to be happy and content with myself when others are struggling. Wait, I don't think I said that right.....I mean, I still feel good about MY stuff, but I guess I feel like I can't/shouldn't share it with those around me b/c of what they are going through. I KNOW I can't fix what's happening with my friends--it's their stuff to work out and the best thing I can do is just be supportive. I just hate seeing them hurt or be stressed.

I am not going to name those having a tough time right now. You know who you are. Just know that I am here for you in whatever way I can be.

Love,
Mama Hen

I'm not ignoring you---I can't hear you

2009-01-31T23:58:00.002-06:00

Tonight I went to the grocery store and did massive shopping. I despise grocery shopping. it's one of those thing i wish i could delegate to others. anyhoo, i get to the check out and unload everything onto the little conveyer belt for the attendant to scan. there wasn't room for the bag of potatoes so i held it up so she could use her hand held scanner and then i could just put it back into the cart. i stood there holding the bag for a minute before she noticed and then she scanned it and i put it down. i didn't think anything of it, that it took her a moment. then, i realize she is talking to me. i can't understand what she is saying and had to ask her to repeat 3 times before it got it. she sounded really irritated and said "you should have told me you were standing there." i was confused then realized that she was talking about when i was holding up the bag of potatoes. i told her it was not a problem but she continued talking, saying that i should clear my throat or something to let her know i was there. i was still having a problem hearing her b/c the grocery store is loud (especially with registers and scanners beeping, ppl talking, etc). I told her that i can't hear what she is saying because i am deaf. Ok, so slight exaggeration on my part. BUT, i am VERY hard of hearing in my right ear (childhood infection) and in noisy places I have difficulty distinguishing noises. After i said that I was deaf she started talking in a very loud and slow voice. I tried not to laugh. Then, she points to the total on the register screen and holds up her hands to show the numbers (like holding up five fingers and point to the number 5). I'm still trying not to laugh. The young woman bagging the groceries finished and I told her thank you, to which the woman responded for me to have a nice night. I echoed the same to her and I saw the cashier looking at me like "how did you hear her?" I just looked at the cashier and said "oh I read lips very well." As I left the store i thought about the whole exchange. Up until I told the cashier that I couldn't hear she was kind of snippy with me. Her tone changed and while she was trying TOO hard (by pointing at the numbers and holding up her hands), I can see that at least she was trying to be accomodating.
I am thankful for what hearing I have. I need to be more mindful and sensitive to people around me who might be struggling to hear or to see or to walk or to read. Being differently abled doesn't mean a person needs special treatment, just maybe a different approach.
Who would have thought that a trip to the grocery store would be such a teaching moment?

Go ahead, make my day

2009-01-23T10:20:00.003-06:00

As I prepped for work last night I decided I really wanted a salad for dinner. I stopped by Panera and as I drove in the parking lot I saw that the place was pretty quiet (assuring a parking spot). As I pulled into one of the front "10 Minute To Go" spots, a pick up in the spot next to me starts backing out. It doesn't appear that the truck sees I am there and before she hits me (I could see the driver) I tapped my horn and honked once at her. It wasn't the long HONNNNNKKKKK, it was a short BEEP. She stopped, looked all around and then noticed me, in which during that time I slid into my space. All's well, right? Well, apparently she was NOT happy that I beeped at her! The lady pulls her pick up right behind my car, angled lengthwise and starts yelling at me! I am watching through my mirrors and decided to wait until she pulled away before I got out of my car. She yells Get out of the car! I'm thinking, uhhhh nope, I'm staying right here crazy lady. Well then I hear her put the truck in park and she gets out and walks up to my window. I wasn't scared but I was trying to avoid anything messy. She was short and skinny--I was pretty sure I could take her down if I had to (i don't advocate violence at all). She leans in toward my window and is yelling and hollering at me, saying she has a toothache and she stopped in to buy soup & the sun was in her eyes and she couldn't see me. She then yelled that it was rude of me to honk at her and to get all grumpy but I DON'T FEEL WELL AND I JUST CAME TO GET SOUP. I am thinking uh yeah, not feeling well is the least of your problems hon. I was very calm and wasn't a smart ass when she would ask me something and I didn't try to egg her on. THEN, as she is ranting she seems to make herself more worked up and she starts cursing and being nasty. So, I held up my cell phone and said if you continue to threaten me I will call 911 and let the police work this out. She called me a few more names and then got back in her truck, all the time yelling "I don't feel good." The smart alec in me came out as she walked away yelling this and I said "well obviously!" I'm lucky she didn't ram my car as she drove away.
I went in to get my salad and I laughed about the whole thing. Obviously this woman was having a bad day. But, i hope that she realizes how much danger she put herself in. Sure, I get mad at other drivers but mentally (and silently) I rave about them and then move on. She put herself in a lot of danger by getting out of her car and confronting me at my car window. I also noticed how calm and non-anxious I was during the whole ordeal, which is a good trait b/c i didn't allow myself to get all caught up in HER drama.

Well lady from Panera, I hope your tooth is better. If you still need to rave, call me on the crisis line...I work from six to midnight.

Back to blogging

2009-01-22T12:34:00.002-06:00

I haven't blogged in a LONG time. After getting into Facebook I started using that as a blog space. I decided to go ahead and come back here, who knows if it will last. Due to changes in my life I feel the need to write (as writing helps ease anxiety and stress). The changes aren't bad but I don't deal with major change so easily and just the act of change causes me anxiety.
So what's new you ask? Well, I left my job where I did case management for the elderly and disabled. I was there about a year and a half but it was time to move on. My big reason for leaving was to do my final internship for my social work program. There was no way to keep that full time job and intern full time.

I started a part time job this week. I am working at a crisis line, answering calls from various sources. One line is for those who just need someone to talk to--maybe they are a little depressed or having a rough time. There's also a line for folks looking for information on social service resources, which we look up in a comprehensive database. I've only been there two nights (I work 6pm to midnight) but I LOVE it. I think it's going to be a great place for me. It's a good use of my social work skills.

My internship for school has been a little messed up so I haven't started yet. I hope to get going by early next week. I did talk with OU and switched to an extended practicum, so i won't actually finish until end of July. That's ok with me though because it means I only intern about 18-22 hours per week, instead of 36-40 like I was scheduled. The new schedule allows me to actually sleep at night for more than 5 hours. ugh.

That's life at the moment. More updates to come soon as I get back into the swing of blogging.

Friday Five

2007-10-26T23:33:00.000-05:00

I know, I haven't been blogging lately....too much to do in my world! Between school, work, and YDA I just have barely had time to sleep. Thank goodness for Mandy's Friday Five. It looked like fun this week!

1. How did you celebrate this time of year when you were a child? in Pennsylvania I remember all the leaves that the neighborhood kids and I would rake into these huge forts. We would nestle down into the leaves and hang out. One year for Halloween I was sick and couldn't go trick or treating. I was sooo mad at my Mom for not letting me go out. I tried to convince her that I HAD to go because I HAD to get money for Unicef. It didn't work.
2. Candy apples: Do you prefer red cinnamon or caramel covered? Or something else? Not too into candy apples and am not a cinnamon fan at all. I like regular ol Gala apples.
3. Pumpkins: Do you make Jack O’ Lanterns? Any ideas of what else to do with them? I haven't carved pumpkins in a couple of years. I'm terrible at it and mine always look deformed. The slimy pumpkin guts makes me a little quesy.
4. Do you decorate your home for fall or Halloween? If so, what do you do? Bonus points for pictures. I'm terrible...I don't decorate worth squat. I barely put up stuff at Christmas. I mean, it's just me and the cat and she sure doesn't care. :-)
5. Do you like pretending to be something different? Does a costume bring our an alternate personality? Admittedly, yes. I love dressing up but it doesn't bring out an alternate personality---it brings out my fun/outgoing side which I don't share enough.

sweet, sweet spirit

2007-09-20T11:50:00.000-05:00

My previous post was about a friend from college, Danette. She transitioned early this morning. I can only imagine how her family is feeling right now...both relieved and incredibly sad. I pray for Danette, her husband and their children. I hope that the strength and spirit she showed can give them a bit of comfort and that the children will always know how incredible their mother was.

Limbo

2007-09-17T18:47:00.000-05:00

This past weekend I was in Washington D.C. for YD meetings. Several days before I had received an e-mail from a college friend, alerting me to the declining health of Danette, another college friend. When I was a freshman/sophomore, Danette was a leader in the United Methodist Student Fellowship. She was also a Kappa Phi. She worked church camps, lead music a lot, and was an overall really neat woman. She had a bouncy spirit about her, cheerful and funny, thoughtful and sincere. I still have a letter she wrote me once, after a week of camp, and she and I had spent some serious time together talking about God and our place in ministry.
So, my friend emailed me that Danette was declining in health having been diagnosed a couple of years ago with a rare form of ovarian cancer. I immediately went to Danette's website to get the latest updates and have spent so much time the past few days thinking about her, her family and how amazing this woman is. To tell the truth, I've been a little angry---not really sure at whom, but angry still....I guess I'm angry at cancer. I am REALLY tired of cancer destroying people I know. Doesn't that sound stupid---I mean, I get angry/upset about other ailments and diseases but for some reason cancer keeps appearing.
My flight Sunday night was smooth and I watched the sun set from my airplane seat. I had a long talk with God from seat 3A. I started by giving thanks for a safe flight and a beautiful sunset. I also prayed for Danette and her husband, as well as their 5 small children. I felt suspended in reality--below me was the world and above me was infinity. I realized that this is how I saw Danette right now, stuck between life and eternity and torn between staying and going. I pray that Danette finds the peace and healing her body so desparately needs. I also pray for comfort for her family, especially their children.

A part of me can't help but wonder how a merciful and loving God can justify cancer in a person like Danette...or Shelly...or my mother....why those people? why not me? there is nothing i have ever done or will ever do that can come close to what those three have...so why not me? i just don't understand sometimes.

Catching up

2007-09-17T18:41:00.000-05:00

I know, it's been a long time since the last post. I'm going to try and make this a catch-up blog and then do a second blog, reflecting on some happenings in my world.
August was a busy month! After our Young Democrats of America convention I needed some down time. Convention was fabulous (and of course since we won it was even better) but I was so drained. Then, an opportunity came along and I interviewed & accepted a new job. Wow. I gave my two week notice and started my new job on Aug 20th. I am now working for a home health agency doing case management for a program called Advantage Waiver. Though I'm still rather new, I am liking the job and feel this is a good change for me. I did it primarily because there is a lot of flexibility with this position. In several months, when I do my practicums for school, I will need to be able to balance work and internship. It would have been difficult to do at DHS and I knew I would probably be changing jobs soon. Change is hard for me (like it is for a lot of ppl) but overall I feel very comfortable in the new place. Yay for me.
Because of being off for the YDA convention and the potential to switch jobs, I didn't get to attend family vacation this year. I was bummed...but, at least I got to see my brothers and nieces/nephews back in April when Gaila and I went to NY.

School has started back for the semester and I am trying to get motivated to study. The current class is on Generalist Practice and involves quite a bit of paper writing. It's not difficult but keeping up with the reading and assignments is overwhelming at the moment. I'll survive.....ok, on to the 2nd post....

Let us break bread together

2007-08-05T21:06:00.000-05:00

Church was really good today. It wasn't that the sermon was spectacular or there was some thunderous rumbling from God. It just felt good to be worshipping together within a fellowship of believers. It was a communion Sunday and I forgot that Presbyterians do things a little differently than what I'm used to. They pass plates of bread pieces and everyone takes one, holding it until everyone is served, then we all partake together. The little cups of juice are passed and you drink as you are ready. After eating the bread I had a very UNHOLY thought...Jesus is stuck in my teeth. Those dry, unleavened bread pieces are kinda hard to digest. I had bottled water with me but I didn't want to break the sanctity of the moment, so after drinking the juice I gulped a little water and tried to get the bread out from my teeth. I tried so hard not to laugh. Anyhoo....I've been worshipping at First Presby for the most part and it's comfortable. No, there's not really people my age there but I've come to accept that "my" generation is largely unchurched in mainstream churches. So, I can either worship in a place I'm familiar with and comfortable in, like First Presby or a Methodist Church, or I can melt into one of the mega churches where I might have community, but not theology. I'm not willing to go there...not yet. I love the liturgy, hymns, and traditions of my heritage. I want to be amongst a fellowship of believers as we pray, "Our Father, who art in heaven..." That's church for me.

The Family Table

2007-07-31T00:27:00.000-05:00

Quite an interesting observation tonight....after work I stopped off at Sam's Club to pick up mass quantities of deli meat, celery, and a few other items. Yes, it's probably easier to go to the grocery store and get these things but I love roaming around Sam's. But, I digress....after I checked out I went to get a soda and noticed several people, customers, sitting at the little tables & benches. Once I clued in, I saw that at least three of these tables were occupied by families all having a dinner of Sam's snack bar food. This struck me as tremendously odd. I mean, there they were surrounded by their recent purchases and they are having a family moment at the steel picnic tables.
I certainly wasn't raised in the all-American, conventional family (but then again, was anyone?), but my parents tried to hold family-around-the-table-dinner as often as possible. We set the table, sat together, prayed, and devoured. Mom was always asking questions about school, dragging out the dictionary to look up words....My stepdad would turn on CNN and blare the news of the day or make me watch Moneyline (with Lou Dobbs). I guess I'm not trying to pass judgement on the families who eat their dinner at Sam's Club, but come on, doesn't that seem strange to anyone else? I don't know why this bothers me so much.

Oh yeah, you want a senseless topic that will really get me going? Ask me about milk trucks and how I feel about seeing them on the highway.

resolution

2007-07-15T23:50:00.000-05:00

This is not a commentary on the Catholic Church priest abuse scandals....but, tonight i was reading a story in the New York Times on the recent 600 million settlement in Louisiana. One of the cardinals or bishops was quoted as saying they hoped this (settlement) would bring about a final resolution. I just don't understand how money will truly bring resolution??! I hear people saying how much they want to win the lottery, that it will make things so much better for them. Duh..money does not buy happiness. Money will not erase memories, scars, etc for survivors. It's a similar situation with the death penalty. Taking one life doesn't bring back the one that's already gone. This "eye for an eye" business is really over-rated.
So, what MIGHT bring resolution to a person? How about forgiveness? Reconciliation? Prayer? Faith? Hope? Love?
Those are all simple actions that bring forth a great response.
Let's resolve to be gentler to one another, to speak softer words, show a little more love, and give a lot more of ourselves.

A funny thing happened..

2007-07-11T22:32:00.000-05:00

We had an amusing moment at work today. Once a month, my three co-workers and I meet with our supervisor to staff cases, discuss issues, whatever...We meet in the morning, have lunch, then do our monthly individual conferences in the afternoon. So, while at lunch we're gabbing and my co-worker Gaila pulls out some coins and is looking at the quarters. She hands a quarter to our supervisor and says "did you see the new Washington?" Supervisor is peering intently at the coin and says "yup, that's him." Gaila immediately blurts out TURN IT OVER GOOFBALL. After a slight pause, we all cracked up because hearing Gaila call the supervisor a goofball was SOOO funny. Of course, what Gaila was trying to do was call the attention to the picturesque scene of Washington STATE on the back of the coin, not Washington the President. We giggled for a long time about that one. Definitely one of the funniest moments I've experienced in a while. Gaila was horrified that she was going to get in trouble but thankfully our supervisor has a sense of humor. She found it funny! Way to go, Gaila! We knew there was a smart ass in you!

Commitment

2007-07-01T17:27:00.001-05:00

I'm taking a class this summer on the Diagnostic and Statistics Manual of Mental Disorders, otherwise known as the DSM-IV. It's quite fascinating to read of the different mental illnesses and case studies/symptoms. Today, I have been working on a short paper regarding voluntary and involuntary commitment to a mental health institution. We had to research the statutes on commitment in the state we live in or plan to work in. I researched the state of Maine (because whether or not I end up in Maine, I don't want to stay in Oklahoma). What I find interesting is that if a person voluntarily commits themself, they can discharge after only 16 hours. Does anyone else think that number is a little low? I mean, I know it's voluntary but still---if you are putting yourself in a mental institution, what good is 16 hours going to do? Someone explain this to me. I had a client once who voluntarily admitted himself to detox. (Yes, I know drug/alcohol detox is way different than mental health, but go with it...) He mainly admitted himself to get his family, and me, off his case for a while. He didn't stay but maybe 24 hours then left, against medical advice, and of course was right back to using/drug seeking. Let's put the word "commitment" to good use and if someone enters treatment, let's COMMIT to a little more than 16 hours of care.
Yes, I'm rambling. No one cares what I say on this blog. And yes, if you must know, I'm procrastinating doing my next section of homework. Am I commited to my education? No, not today. :-)

Shane

2007-06-28T23:44:00.000-05:00

I hope this font is hurting Shane's eyes. It's supposed to. He complained and complained tonight about the background on my blog...it HURTS his eyes. Oh please. :-) Shane and wifey Julie are counting down the days until baby #3 arrives. They are being mean and won't tell anyone the name. So, I have decided to call him (the baby) Micah. I don't care if it's not his name, that's what I'm calling him. Ok kids, I have nothing witty or fun to say tonight because i'm really sleepy. Goodnight and goodnight.

Tagged

2007-06-20T22:11:00.001-05:00

I was tagged by Mandy recently but I'm so behind on my blogging that I'm just now catching up. Sorry! Ok, 8 (or is it 10?) random things about me......
1. I seem to have an addiction to ketchup right now. Like, I don't put it on everything, but when I have it...I use a ton of it. (I know, Trouble is throwing up at the thought of ketchup)

2. I once got to spend a day with Wilma Mankiller, former Chief of the Cherokee Nation. We took a picture at the end of the day and when I saw it I freaked--she and I look SOO much alike. It's my Cherokee heritage.

3. I am slightly obsessive compulsive, especially when it comes to the feel and texture of certain things. I am constantly putting lotion on my hands because I can't stand the feel of dry skin.

4. I absolutely love to vacuum. I really do.

5. I make Rosaries...the prayer bead chains. I am a devout sayer of the Rosary though I am not Catholic.

6. I will not eat iceberg lettuce.

7. I often throw pennies away because they are an annoying piece of currency.

8. oh my goodness I can't think of a last random fact....sorry.

Inner shut down

2007-05-22T22:58:00.000-05:00

I spent last weekend in Omaha, NE (yes, Omaha) for a Young Dems meeting. It was a smaller group than normal but that was ok because it was mostly people I like. :-) The bad part was being sick...have had a sinus infection or something for over a week. I finally started on antibiotics on Friday and slowly they are helping. I loaded up with lots o drugs and pushed through the weekend. The highlight was the Saturday night Roast of outgoing president, Chris Gallaway. The people roasting did a great job but NO ONE was safe--we all got blasted in some form or another. I brought poster board and markers and made signs so we could heckle the folks on stage. It was great!! My favorite sign said "NOT FUNNY." It really threw people off. We laughed so hard Saturday night...it was a good time.

This was my last go-round chairing Resolutions. It's been a great appointment for me. During General Session, I presented 5 resolutions, none of them controversial. Then, a member from Texas piped up and freakin ripped me in front of the entire national committee--saying that one of the resolutions wasn't professional and we were being foolish and stupid. I was ticked off, to say the least. After she reamed me, people were like WTF is she talking about?? I spoke to her after the meeting, not so nicely explaining to her the process in which resolutions are written and submitted. I told her if she had a problem with what I was doing then she should have come to the meeting and brought up the issue there. She was all like, oh--I didn't know. Bull. She said she wasn't trying to be critical or anything....uh huh, so that's why she took snotty & condescending tone and attacked ME in front of the national committee? Yeah. Let's see how far that gets her.
Ok...enough raving.

So even though I was soooo sick during the weekend I pushed through it and managed to attend all my meetings. I got home Sunday night and crashed. My body shut down! I slept close to 20 hours on Monday and most of Tuesday as well. I got up to take drugs and drink water and that's about it. I hope to go to work tomorrow because I have major catching up to do.

Matti and I are going back to bed (that's my cat....)
Peace!!

Vibes

2007-05-15T20:25:00.000-05:00

I don't keep up with the solar system and full moons and such, but there are some WEIRD freakin vibes in the atmosphere right now. It's making people act differently, strangely, and unusually bitter. I tell ya--if I could have one superpower, it would be a lightening bolt so I could zap people in the ass when they act up. Let me tell you, the bolt would be thrown big time right now! The more and more I'm around people, the more I want to hibernate in a snug little cabin deep in the forests of Maine. Sigh.

Resigned

2007-05-02T21:52:00.000-05:00

Hey folks, it's been a few weeks since my last post. I had to get a final paper done for my class then enjoyed a few days of down time. I spent last week in New York visiting my family and showing a friend around NYC. We had a great time (and are thoroughly exhausted). It was SOO good to see my brothers and their families. I needed that.

Anyone remember that saying, "well behaved women rarely make history"? I admit it, I'm a bit of a rebel. I'm outspoken, opinionated, strong willed...somehow, that's a threat to some of the people around me. For the past few years I have served on a local non-profit board. I have always been proud of being a part of this group and I think I did a lot for & with them. However, I didn't agree with the leadership 100% and wasn't willing to be a "Yes" woman. Long story short...last night it was STRONGLY encouraged that I ponder my future with this board and in essence, resign. I did resign, allowing them to save face but also taking a moment to say what I needed to say before cutting the ties. Am I upset? Yes. I have a strong belief in being part of the change I wish to see in the world (another great quote). But, apparently this was not the time or the place to accomplish some of those changes. I wish them well, I really do, and I think in time they will realize exactly how valuable I was. So there. :-)

I've been tagged

2007-04-20T20:57:00.000-05:00

Amanda Lucia got me....Yes, I was tagged. This means I get to write a blog posting answering the following:
Six things that make me weird..........Only 6?? Here goes. Number One--My blog program doesn't allow me to hit "enter" to start things on a new line, which is why my sentences and paragraphs tend to all run together. Don't ask why, I don't know why. It just hates me. Number Two: I can't stand the sight of milk trucks. Like, the big semi-rigs going down the highway with "refrigerated" tanks on the back, filled with milk. GROSSES me out more than just about anything. I will only buy milk that comes straight from a dairy farm where they bottle it themselves. Number Three: I am fascinated with studying the Latter Day Saints (AKA Mormons). I read a lot of Mormon history and church related news/articles. Number Four: I think lemon slices in glasses of water is disgusting. I don't know who invented citrus fruit in water but I hate it. I will send the glass of water back. Number Five: I collect tacky Jesus magnets. My favorite is "I found Jesus, He was behind the sofa the whole time!" Number Six: I am mildly obsessive compulsive, mostly when it comes to the texture and feel of things. Like, if I touch the inside of my palm with my finger, I have to touch the other palm in the same manner. Sometimes I can't touch notebook paper because of how it feels. I have to put on lotion before I touch the paper. Yeah, I'm weird, you can go ahead and say it. Ok, so there it is...I was tagged. Thanks, Mandy! Happy almost graduation sweetie!!!

Powerless

2007-04-17T23:22:00.000-05:00

I have this wonderful friend, Pat, who is very wise. She often reminds me that there are times when I am powerless and must give *whatever* over to my Higher Power and let it go. Simple advice, yet profound when actually implemented. I struggle with giving over that power at times, certainly when it comes to myself and when it comes to situations I see people in. A few posts back, I mentioned that I had recently learned of a domestic violence situation and that the whole thing bothered me. I learned today that the situation is worse, much worse, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Is it enough to pray for that person? Can it be enough? Will I ACCEPT that what I can do is pray, and what I must do is pray? I am trying to give it over but it's so hard. Pat often reminds me to breathe....God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Sigh....

Is there a point?

2007-04-15T00:36:00.000-05:00

Is there a point to this blogging stuff, or am I just talking to hear myself talk?

Let It Be Said

2007-04-04T16:55:00.000-05:00

Let It Be Said…..

I was listening to something on the radio today and I heard these words, “Let it be said.” It immediately got me thinking about how words impact and describe a person or a situation.
In the end of the movie And The Band Played On, various clips and pictures are shown on people who have died from AIDS. I don’t remember the man’s name, but one gentleman is shown testifying before Congress on the need for AIDS funding and research. Then, it shows his panel on the AIDS Memorial Quilt which reads “Do not let my epitaph read that I died of red tape.” I get chills every time I recall that image. Let it be said that still in 2007, the red tape constricts and restricts AIDS funding around the world.

I recently learned of a domestic violence situation. The woman being abused is scared, isolated, lonely, and did I mentioned scared? Granted, I just have her side of the story and certainly there may be more to it than meets the eye. Yet, Let it be said that there is no excuse for violence.

Years ago I was a volunteer/team leader for a group of people who provided a “care team” for a person living with AIDS. At one of our team leader meetings, the staff person had us write our own obituary. This was meant for us to get a sense of some of the challenges and emotional activities that face our clients. It was very hard for me to write mine. I was maybe 21 years old, about to graduate college, and had no idea where I was going to end up in a few months. My life was just beginning and I had to write about how it might end. What would my epitaph read? Let it be said that I was a good person, compassionate and loving, that I gave freely to others. Let it be said that I was a good daughter, aunt, sister, friend, and Christian. Let it be said that people were proud to know me.

Words ARE powerful. Actions are powerful as well, especially when the two combine. I have knowledge and power, influence and insight….how do I utilize all these things to make a difference? Let it be said that my life impacted someone, somewhere.

So I ask you, what do you say in response to “Let it be said…”?

Young Dems

2007-03-29T23:27:00.000-05:00

Did you folks know I'm involved in politics? No, you didn't?? Well, let me tell you..........LOL
For years I have been a part of the Young Democrats of America. It is probably the best organization I have EVER been a part of. I have gained & learned leadership, developed a sense of political savvy, made some amazing friends, and fueled my own political fires. I have served in a lot of leadership roles in the group, my proudest being the Vice President of Programs a few years ago. But right now, I'm involved in my biggest project: electing David Hardt for President of the Young Democrats of America! (This is where you applaud). David is from Dallas and is a dynamic, hard working person. He asked me to be his campaign manager and it's a task I was honored to take. My role is to help coordinate his campaign, advise him on matters, spread the message of his leadership, and grow his support throughout the nation. In addition, David's team of officers get a lot of help and support from me as well. The website is www.davidforyda.com
Come visit the website and meet this rising star of the Democratic Party. I am SO proud to be working with him and can't wait to see what YDA accomplishes with his leadership.

The Blushing Bride

2007-03-25T17:20:00.000-05:00

Congratulations to Jan & Stewart, who married Saturday in Oklahoma City. Jan and I are dear friends, soul sisters in a way, dating back to school & church in Walters. She is what many would describe as the All-American Girl. She's beautiful, I mean physically beautiful, highly intelligent, talented, and incredibly nice. All around, she's good people. My opinion is that men have often been intimidated by her good looks and personality and it's taken her a long time to find that right person. Thank goodness she found him! The wedding was my first time to meet Stewart but I can tell that they are right together. I have never seen her happier.
As I was getting ready for the wedding, I had a moment where I suddenly choked up and cried. I cried because I was so happy for my friend, but I cried for other reasons too. When Jan was in 10th grade, her father unexpectedly died. It was such a blow to her and her family. My mother sang at her dad's funeral. I watched Jan struggle and cope through that loss. A few years later, when I was a sophomore, my father died. Jan helped me through all of that. Those loses made us stronger as friends because we could relate as no one else could. I don't think I would have made it through high school without Jan. Our families have always been connected and if my mother had still been alive, she would have sung The Lord's Prayer at Jan's wedding, I just know it. So, I cried because Jan has found the love of her life, I cried because I am so happy my friend is secure, and I cried for our parents, who brought us together. Don't get me wrong, it was a very very happy day for everyone and the wedding was so elegant and beautiful. I am so thrilled for these two incredible people. God bless Jan and Stewart.

Catching up

2007-03-19T22:17:00.000-05:00

I was kiddingly chastised by a friend the other day--she says I don't blog enough for her. Hmm...maybe if people posted comments and engaged in DI A LOGUE I would blog more. So there. LOL.

I can't even begin to tell you all how crazy my world has been lately. Everything is fine, just chaotic. Started back on another class and it's intense. I like the professor and I am really learning. I had heard not so great things about her, but I think people just didn't understand her dry humor. Anyhoo, I like her and I guess that's all that matters.
March is my busiest month of the year as we have to re-certify most of our clients for a federal drug assistance program. So, I have to run around seeing three million clients and filling out paperwork and doing verifications of income. It's nuts! On top of all that, we have had meetings and conferences that take allllllll day, which only takes away from time with the clients. Every March is like this and I have come to dread it. Cimarron Alliance is also consuming a lot more time than I'd like. Don't get me started on Cimarron, I'm not sure how I feel about being a board member right now. The women of the board, all 4 of us, feel fairly disconnected, unheard, unheeded, unappreciated, and disrespected. I can't speak for the other women, but we have had a lot of conversations about how to seek reform. I'm not sure it's possible.

I am still without a cat. I do miss my Aspasia and miss her keeping me company. I have been scouring the shelters and pet stores for the right cat but so far I haven't found him/her. The search continues...

I am hoping to get to NY in April. I want to see the family and I promised my goofy co-worker that we would go. It's soooo much fun to explore NY as a tourist. If anything, getting out of town for a few days would do wonders for my soul.

Alright, back to campaign work. It never ends......

Honesty

2007-03-10T20:18:00.000-06:00

I don't remember who coined the "honesty is the best policy phrase" but I wonder how true it really is? Several weeks ago a friend was not honest in recalling a conversation between the two of us and the result has been stressful, to say the least. i was honest, my friend wasn't, yet i was made to look like the bad guy. At least i know the truth and my role in being truthful. You know...sometimes being honest surprises people. Last week I stopped at 7-11 to pick up a bottle of water and a newspaper. when i got in my car and drove to my destination, about 15 blocks away, i realized i had accidently picked up 2 newspapers instead of 1. so, i drove back to 7-11 and gave them back the extra newspaper. i walked in, told the clerk i accidently picked up two. The clerk just stared at me and said "oh. Wow. ok." I didn't think twice about taking back the extra paper--I had only paid for one. Duh. It's a no-brainer for me. Maybe it was just a newspaper but it wasn't mine. I don't know...maybe I am some freak of nature. I always strive to be honest and truthful and trustworthy. Why doesn't everyone else? No, I'm not perfect in my efforts, but at least I try.

Hate Crime Allegations Recanted

2007-03-02T21:03:00.000-06:00

I'm really basically sad about this whole situation...Back in November/December, there were two alleged hate based attacks in Ada, Oklahoma. Today, the story broke that the second victim/second incident was a hoax, that the alleged victim confessed to making it all up.
I am sad for Sarah, the alleged victim, for whatever is/was happening in her life that she felt this had to happen. I pray she gets the help she needs.

Spontaneous

2007-02-25T10:52:00.000-06:00

I woke up early on Saturday morning. I was having a dream where there were bugs all over me and it was so vivid that I wasn't completely convinced that it didn't happen. After attempting to sleep with the light on, I finally got up. Lately I've been itching to take a vacation and just get away from everything. So, BRILLIANT me decided to take a road trip. I threw some clothes in a bag, grabbed some cd's, and headed out the door. I got on I-40 east and headed to Ft. Smith, Arkansas. It was a pretty decent day out, windy, but the wind was behind me. I had a good drive--windows down, blasting music, singing, and talking to myself. I stopped at an Arkansas visitor's center and picked up brochures on Ft. Smith and Van Buren. I figured I would stay the night and have a leisurely day driving home on Sunday.
Finally about 3:30 I realized I needed to eat lunch so I pulled into a TGIFriday's in Ft. Smith. Now, I realize that I can have Friday's almost anywhere, but I don't trust unknown restaurants in strange cities. I've been to Ft. Smith a few times but I don't know much about the city. After eating, I was really tired and figured I had been in the car long enough. I went to a local hotel to check in and they didn't have a room. I called a few places, no one had rooms. So, what the heck, I got back in the car and drove BACK to Oklahoma City. Stupid. The wind had picked up and it was a huge dust & dirt storm. I was driving against 40-45 mph wind the whole way home. Not one of my brightest moments. I stopped at a few rest stops to walk around and whatever but it was too damn windy to sit outside.
Despite the hard drive home, I had a good day. It was kind of fun to be spontaneous. This might sound weird--but it was good to spend time with myself. I needed some clarity and I found it. Well, at least a little.

Next time I'll take a tent and just go camping.

babies, Lent, and rosaries

2007-02-21T23:49:00.000-06:00

Topic One-babies
Seems I'm going to be an Auntie again! It's early, but my brother Doug & his wifey Jean Ann are pg. Yay! This will be #3 for them.

Topic Two: Lent
Lent snuck up on me this year. Was everyone else completely taken aback at how early it is?!? I haven't decided yet what I'm giving up. I was going to give up alcohol but Red Tie Night is coming up and I just CAN'T miss that. :-) I need to do something faith-promoting, like committing to 20 minutes a day of Bible study or whatever. Oh, and I need to call Trina and do my annual "giving you up for Lent" thing. Trina was my Kappa Phi little sister and one year (in college) I was KIDDING when I said I was giving her up for Lent. It kind of stuck and every year I call her to laugh about it.

Topic Three: rosaries
I have been in a rosary making mood lately! I did one for a friend who is converting to Catholicism so she is getting ready to have her first communion and all that jazz. I need to get the rosary in the mail! Anyhoo...I was looking through my beads and realized I had some really beautiful pieces, so I've made about 4 more rosaries in the last week. Indulgences for sale anyone? LOL

I need a vacation. badly. very badly.

Deeply relational

2007-02-18T21:22:00.000-06:00

I have started attending a new church, and when I say "new church," I mean it's brand new! The first gathering was last weekend and I went, really not expecting much. Can you believe it--for once, I was wrong! I was intrigued by the pastor and his message of BEING church, not just DOING church. From the website: "We started Mars Hill because every church must ask the question: 'What does it look like for us to be the church here and now'?"
Certainly, this is not the first group or church to ask such a question but it's been a long time since I found a congregation really willing to engage in the process and the conversation. I had coffee with the pastor/leader, Ben, this week and we had a great time talking about ministry and the possibilites for outreach and message in Oklahoma City. Ben was surprised to hear of my job in HIV/AIDS and shared that his message (for today) was going to be on that subject-about reaching the marginalized.
So, tonight we discussed some statistics about HIV/AIDS in the world and in our little area of Oklahoma. I think it was quite sobering for the group to hear how many men, women, and children have perished or are living with the disease. This led to Matthew 25: 34-39, the whole i was hungry and you gave me food, naked and you clothed me, stranger and you welcomed me....One of Ben's points was that "the church" spends so much time debating the rights and wrongs of a lot of issues and people who need OUR care and God's love get pushed aside. If Jesus walked among us today, do you think He would love and care for the person with HIV/AIDS? I bet He would. I hope and pray and believe that He would and that He does. As Christians, we are called to be God's hands in this world--so how do we respond to these lofty issues that separate churches? I wanted to stand up and cheer when Ben acknowledged that we are called to be deeply relational with all of God's children. Who does God's heart ache for--God's heart aches for all who are marginalized, those who are hurting, those who believe and those who don't believe. God's heart is big enough for all of us. Is my heart big enough? Is yours?

My new worship space is www.marshill.tv

burning

2007-02-16T07:26:00.000-06:00

This is going to sound completely bizarre, but my toothpaste burns my mouth. I'm a Crest kid (and I'm SOOO not knocking Crest, love the stuff) but the latest tube I'm using is not making my mouth happy. I've always had sensitive teeth and my dentist has given me a special "gentle" toothpaste. Stuff tastes nasty! So, I went back to my favorite brand of Crest. I think this is a baking soda & peroxide and I swear, my tongue and lips burn so badly I practically cry!! Now, most sensible people would switch to a different toothpaste or different flavor, right? Who says I'm sensible? I have continued to use this tube because I hate to waste good paste. Hey, that rhymes! Oh...stay on track Rachel. So I don't want to throw out good toothpaste so stupid me continues to use it. I'm down to about a quarter of a tube so it won't be much longer. I know I will never buy that combination again...I'm sticking to the friendly gel or tartar control.

Must remember to file this post under Random & Complete Waste of Mega-Bytes.

Shiver me timbers!

2007-02-12T14:26:00.000-06:00

I just received my monthly bill from the not-so-friendly natural gas company. Now, I know that all you people who are not from Oklahoma think that it's hot and dusty here, but it's not. It's winter and we have real winter weather. It's been dang cold lately (yes, i said dang cold) and so i crank up my heat to keep from freezing. The bill came today and I nearly fell out of my chair. Let's just say that it's high. Round up your pennies and send them my way. If you come to visit, bring your sweaters and blankets because ain't NO heat coming out my vents for awhile.

(my mother is rolling over in heaven because i used the word "ain't." sorry mom)
damn gas company.

Completely hetero!

2007-02-10T17:47:00.000-06:00

Wow, the world can breathe a collective sigh of relief. It was reported this week that disgraced evangelical minister, Ted Haggard, is now "completely heterosexual." Whew. I know I'm relieved. Apparently Haggard underwent several weeks of intense counseling with some fellow evangelical ministers. I wonder if this included a laying on of hands? Kinky.

News articles like this make me roll my eyes. I mean, come on....is Haggard going to become the new poster boy for Exodus International? And if he is straight, then good for him. If he's gay/bi/whatever, then I still really don't care. Let's look at the rhetoric and nastiness and judgement he has passed on others because they were gay, or liberal, or normal. Jeez.

For love of a cat

2007-02-09T20:42:00.000-06:00

It has been a long week. I am slacking in the blogging department but I make no excuses. Late last week I noticed my cat, Aspasia, was not doing well. She was sleeping more than normal and was not eating or drinking. I took her into the vet on Friday and it was not good news. The vet found a big mass on her abdomen. While surgery was a possibility, I do not think it would have given her quality of life so I decided to bring my baby home and love on her for a few days. By Monday morning it was clear she was suffering and exhausted so I made an appointment and she transitioned that afternoon. I miss her so much! Most everyone knows that my cat was my baby and losing her was quite difficult for me. I am glad she is not hurting and I know I gave her the best life possible. All week long it's been a bit strange around the house because I'm used to her being there to greet me, to lie in my lap, to lick me. Sigh. Yeah, I miss her.

words to live by

2007-01-28T17:26:00.000-06:00

live with intention.
walk to the edge.
listen hard.
practice wellness.
play with abandon.
laugh.
choose with no regret.
continue to learn.
appreciate your friends.
do what you love.
live as if this is all there is.

author: mary anne radmacher

X marks the spot

2007-01-14T02:12:00.000-06:00

I was in Dallas, Texas earlier this week for a day and a half. I had some personal business to attend to, then met with two Young Democrats of America friends, David & Chris, to talk shop. David (of Dallas) is running for President of YDA and Chris, who is from Tenn, is running for Executive Vice President. Our national convention this July will be in Dallas so David showed us the convention hotel and a little bit of the city. While taking the train (yay public transportation) to the convention hotel, David pointed out the Texas Book Depository and the place where JFK was shot and killed. What's notable is that on the street where Kennedy was killed is a big X, a permanent marker of sorts, so people can see the exact spot where he was shot. Is it just me or is that a little morbid? When we came back to out hotel, via train, we passed that memorial area again and there was a guy standing on the X, having his picture taken. Now that's just weird........I just don't get it.

Anyhoo....had a great time with my friends though it was a whirlwind trip. The political race is on as more candidates annouce their intention for various YDA offices. Should be an interesting couple of months. I am very proud to be associated with David's campaign and look forward to seeing him lead YDA for the next few years.

Peace!

Ice Ice Baby

2007-01-12T07:53:00.000-06:00

Bracing for a few days of COLDDDDDDDD and ICE. There's a nasty front moving into Oklahoma and apparently it's supposed to be the ice storm of all ice storms. I didn't know about it until yesterday because I'm just oblivious to local news but last night I decided to take it seriously. I went to the grocery store to get a few provisions and you would think that people were preparing for some long term war or disaster...the shelves were empty...no milk...hardly any meat or bread. It was crazy. I do expect to lose power during the next few days because when that ice piles up the lines snap like crazy. So, I have candles, flashlights, a gas fireplace, and some books. It will be like camping (so I keep telling myself).

profound questions

2007-01-04T20:30:00.000-06:00

A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where a trainstops. On my desk I have a work station... -
Can atheists get insurance for acts of God? -
If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? -
Does fuzzy logic tickle? -
If they arrested the Energizer Bunny, would they charge it with battery?-
I believe five out of four people have trouble with fractions. -
How come you never hear about gruntled employees? -
How much faith does it take to be an atheist? -
I don't have a solution, but I admire your problem. -
If a tin whistle is made out of tin (and it is), then what,exactly, isfog horn made out of? -
If quitters never win, and winners never quit, what fool came up with,"Quit while you're ahead"? -
If atheists say there is no God, who do they think pops up the next Kleenex in the box? -
Okay, who stopped the payment on my reality check? -
I believe the only time the world beats a path to my door is when I'min the bathroom. - Do Lipton employees take coffee breaks? -
What hair color do they put on the driver's licenses of bald men? -
What WAS the best thing before sliced bread?

Hazy shade of winter

2007-01-02T18:03:00.000-06:00

Happy 2007 to everyone! The holiday season is winding down and I'm trying to get all the Christmas decorations put away. I'm thinking of leaving my tree up with it's cute white lights. It's not a real Christmas tree but a topiary thingy in an urn. I don't know how to describe it. Maybe I'll leave it up for a while.
Christmas was good--spent a few days with my stepfamily in that boring small town in SW Oklahoma. My nieces were the best part of Christmas, Harper is 3 1/2 and Marin is 2. Adorable. I made them scrapbooks for Christmas (following their mother's strict orders of no toys). Actually, I started the scrapbooks and gave their Mom the rest of the materials needed to finish them. I got a microwave which I needed/wanted since mine went haywire about a week before xmas. I also got a set of good knives so watch out--I'll cut ya up. Eww...that was morbid, wasn't it?
I had today off of work as part of the national mourning of Pres. Ford. Kind of sad that someone has to die for me to have a day off work, huh? It was also the swearing-in ceremony for my wonderful commissioner, Jim Roth. I just adore Jim and his whole family, who treat me as family. I can't wait to see what other great things he accomplishes.

The next hurdle is class which begins in a few weeks. I haven't bought my books yet but need to so I can do the pre-course assignments. Why do professors do this??

Looking forward to a vacation in Feb, to NY to see the brothers and to show a friend around the city. There's talk of the family going to Disney as well which hey, if someone is paying for it then I'm there! LOL.

Be good.........

Merry Christmas

2006-12-21T22:13:00.000-06:00

Merry Christmas everyone, and happy holidays to all those who don't participate in the Christmas-type tradition. I'm too tired to be politically correct!!

I JUST got my grade back from my Human Behavior/Social Environment class paper. I wrote on Pre-relase Discharge Planning and Continuity of Care in HIV Positive Inmates. Big title, I know......anyhoo....I got a 95 (out of 100) so yay for me. I was sweating bullets when i was opening my grade because I was really afraid that I had messed up. Whew. I know I got a 97 on the final exam so at least I'm still pulling a 4.0 average. Whoopeee.....lol. I know I know...it's social work and not rocket science.

Be safe, love lots, and kiss your family.

World AIDS Day 2006

2006-12-01T16:18:00.000-06:00

It's World AIDS Day 2006 and I'm sure many of you are expecting a post about the AIDS pandemic. Guess what? I'm not going to do one. Instead, I want YOU to post your thoughts, feelings, ideas, etc on the subject. So, get to it!

I Love Being Non-Essential!

2006-11-30T08:41:00.000-06:00

Snow day! Snow day! It's been sleeting for several hours and the snow is supposed to kick in at any time. With the weather being so bad, pretty much everything in Oklahoma City has shut down, including my office. Woo hoo! Being a State Employee, the Governor has to declare if our offices can shut so last night & this morning we were all watching the news to see. Sure enough, "non-essential employees" were allowed to stay home. Ha ha ha. I absolutely don't mind being non-essential if it means I get to stay home in 20degree weather with sleet and snow. I have the gas fireplace cranked up, a nice warm blanket, and my cat. What could be better?

musical poetry

2006-11-27T22:39:00.000-06:00

i spent a good portion of this evening listening to music. i bought a couple of cd's over the summer that i never really listened to and now i'm addicted to them. Tonight it was Martin Sexton, his album entitled Black Sheep. SOOO good. It's a bluegrass/blues/folk mix and powerful. I'm jealous of those who can write music and make it work. I've always been a musician but performance only. i can't create it, write it, envision it, or kick start its soul. i think that's where the true talent lies. ah well, i was destined to be ordinary i suppose. can i be satisfied with that?

Native American Perspective on Thanksgiving

2006-11-23T14:44:00.000-06:00

Happy Thanksgiving!
The Native Amercian PerspectiveFirst Thanksgiving? NOT!
The Pilgrims are said to have had the "first" thanksgiving feast in the New World in the autumn of 1621. Isn't that what you were taught in school? Nothing could be further from the truth!
People have given thanks for the bountiful harvests for thousands of years all over the earth. Historical records exist of the ancient Egyptians giving thanks to their gods for the Nile River floods that provided needed irrigation for their crops. The Chinese gave thanks to their gods and honored their ancestors. The Romans and Greeks celebrated with feasts, pageants, and revelry. Across Europe, India, Africa, North America and South America, and the rest of the earth over the millenia, there have been commemorations and feasts of thanksgiving.
The inhabitants of the North American continent were no different than other cultures. They worshipped the Earth Mother who provided the great herds for hunting, the aquatic creatures for fishing, and for bountiful crops of corn and other provisions. While the ceremonies differed from tribe to tribe across the continent, depending on their geographical location and their circumstances, a common thread weaves all mankind together. There is a common belief that some superior being(s) exist that are responsible for satisfying the need for sustenance and the perpetuation of the cyclical order of nature.
Prior to the Pilgrims' arrival in 1620, the Native Americans in the eastern shore of the North American continent had encountered other English and Spanish explorers. European visitors inadvertantly introduced smallpox to the Native American population in 1617. The subsequent plague decimated the population, with nearly half of the Native Americans succumbing to the virulent disease.
One hundred and two Pilgrim emigrants departed England on the Mayflower. During the voyage, one person was lost overboard and a child was born onboard. Of the 102 people who arrived at Plymouth Rock in December of 1620, only 50 survived the first winter in the New World. Cold and starvation killed many. Without the generosity of the Indians who provided food, many more would probably have died. The Pilgrims had much for which to be thankful.
According to the first newspaper published in America, Publick Occurrences, published on 25 September 1690 by Benjamin Harris, a group of Christianized Indians selected the date and place for the celebration of the first thanksgiving with the Pilgrims.
In the Fall of 1621, the thanksgiving commemoration took place. We know that it lasted for three days and included a period of fasting, prayer, religious services, and finally a shared meal. There were 90 Indians involved in this affair. While this celebration was never repeated, it has become the model for what most U.S. citizens celebrate today as Thanksgiving. This "first thanksgiving" marked a tranquil moment in time before tensions escalated and tempers flared.
The Pilgrims viewed the Indians as savages requiring the salvation of Christianity. They failed to recognize the deeply spiritual nature of the Native American people and their bond with the gods of nature. The Pilgrims aggressively tried to recruit the "savages." Those who accepted Christianity found themselves ostracized by their tribes and accepted by the Pilgrims as mere disciples. The Pilgrims' tampering with the beliefs of the Indians greatly offended the tribal leaders.
The Pilgrims were not adept at farming in their new homeland. Whereas the Indians were experts at growing maize, the Pilgrims were slow to learn. Their harvests of 1621 and 1622 were meager, and the Indians offered to exchange some of their harvest for beads and other materials. The Pilgrims eagerly responded but, in time, demonstrated bad faith by failing to fulfill their side of the bargain. The Indian leaders, proud men of their word, were insulted by the rude way in which they were treated. Tempers flared and, in time, open hostilities broke out.
History chonicles the subsequent colonialization, the infringement of colonists on Indian lands, the violation of the Indians' sacred beliefs and burial sites, and the forcing of the Indians farther and farther west. Treaties, massacres, seizure of lands, relocations, formation of reservations -- all of these represent a poor return for the Native Americans' investment of generosity.
Nevertheless, the commemoration of the "First Thanksgiving" that most U.S. citizens know is really not a celebration of bounties of the land. It should, instead, be a time to consider what might have been -- an honorable, mutually beneficial collaboration between two disparate peoples from different parts of the world.
In the meantime, remember that the celebration of thankfulness for the bounties of the land, the oceans, the streams, and of those things that make life wonderful did not begin with the Pilgrims. The Native Americans were commemorating these bounties long before the Pilgrims arrived. The customs still survive, more beautiful and meaningful today because of their fragile and spiritual nature. Author: GFS Morgan

Mazel Tov!!

2006-11-12T23:11:00.000-06:00

In a beautiful ceremony, my friend Jessica married her soul-mate Brian tonight. I've known Jessica through work (she's a great therapist for my clients) and lots of our work community attended her wedding. It's wonderful to see people come together to celebrate life's blessings. Congrats Jessica and Brian and many wishes for your life together.

rightwasright.us (very funny)

2006-11-10T22:15:00.000-06:00

Now that the election is behind us, and the Democrats control both houses of Congress, there's no reason not to admit it: the Right was right about us all along. Here is our 25-point manifesto for the new Congress:

1. Mandatory homosexuality
2. Drug-filled condoms in schools
3. Introduce the new Destruction of Marriage Act
4. Border fence replaced with free shuttle buses
5. Osama Bin Laden to be Secretary of State
6. Withdraw from Iraq, apologize, reinstate Hussein
7. English language banned from all Federal buildings
8. Math classes replaced by encounter groups
9. All taxes to be tripled
10. All fortunes over $250,000 to be confiscated
11. On-demand welfare
12. Tofurkey to be named official Thanksgiving dish
13. Freeways to be removed, replaced with light rail systems
14. Pledge of Allegiance in schools replaced with morning flag-burning
15. Stem cells allowed to be harvested from any child under the age of 8
16. Comatose people to be ground up and fed to poor
17. Quarterly mandatory abortion lottery
18. God to be mocked roundly
19. Dissolve Executive Branch: reassign responsibilities to UN
20. Jane Fonda to be appointed Secretary of Appeasement
21. Outlaw all firearms: previous owners assigned to anger management therapy
22. Texas returned to Mexico
23. Ban Christmas: replace with Celebrate our Monkey Ancestors Day
24. Carter added to Mount Rushmore
25. Modify USA's motto to "Land of the French and the home of the brave"

Must I even say it?

2006-11-06T08:46:00.000-06:00

Tomorrow is election day 2006. Vote. It's your right. It's your obligation. Vote. If you are not pleased with the governmental decisions being made then say so. Nothing irks me more than people who grumble and complain and say that politics is useless. It's the system we have and though it's not perfect it does work. Vote.

pull a bag over my face

2006-11-02T12:19:00.000-06:00

So, I've had this cold for a couple of days. I stayed home from work on Wednesday because I felt really terrible. Today, Thursday, I went in for a few hours b/c there was some work I needed to wrap up. My co-worker Gaila came into my office to see how I was doing. The dialogue went like this...Gaila: "Hey, how are you?" Rachel: "Better thanks. I slept a lot yesterday." Gaila: "Whoa, you are really pale." Rachel: "Uh, yeah. I have no make up on." Gaila: "Oh. (pause) Glad you're better." I thought the whole thing was hilarious. Then again, it doesn't take much to amuse me.

for all the saints

2006-11-01T23:26:00.000-06:00

today, nov 1, is all saints day in my christian world. i was too sick to get out and participate in a service, so i decided to do some remembering here at home. my experience of all saints day is to honor and remember those who have died in the last year. but, my friend shane pointed out that saints in day to day life also deserve a little shout out.
first...those who have died this year. Shelly, a family friend and true angel. MJ, my mom's long time assistant. Don, a very special client of mine. Nathan, a troubled soul. I know there are others, but these 4 stick out in my brain.

Saints in my life....it wouldn't be fair to try and name them. i guess each person in my life is there for a reason and i don't always know/recognize what that reason is. i think that i often forget to love people as they are, not as i think they should be.

if none of this post makes sense it's because i'm on major drugs for a cold. :-)

"For all the saints, who from their labors rest,Who Thee by faith before the world confessed,Thy Name, O Jesus, be forever blessed.Alleluia, Alleluia!"

just another manic monday

2006-10-30T22:54:00.000-06:00

It's like, 10:47 in the evening i should be in bed. i'm on the verge of getting sick (congestion in my chest) so I'm downing Mucinex and have the bottle of nasal spray standing by. I don't have TIME to be sick. doesn't my body realize it's election time??!! plus, my next class starts on Friday and i still have a couple of chapters left to read.
I know i sound like i'm complaining but i'm really not. i'm just a little stressy.....

Did i blog about my new hobby?? I don't think i did....I've taken up knitting. yes, i'm a nerd (but you probably already knew that). i bought this thing that is like knitting-for-cheaters and it is so easy and so fun. in fact, i got two more people started doing it. every female in the family is getting a scarf for christmas!!! lol. i freakin love doing this.

sorry for the short and boring post but i feel like blah and need to go to bed.

Finally....an update!!

2006-10-10T21:48:00.001-05:00

Because I'm tired of hearing some of you grumble...here's an update to my blog!! Lol. I was talking to my friend Shane last night and he's like--what's the deal with not posting lately?? Now, Shane has a nice, cushy little job at a seminary and he doesn't do much all day long. His idea of work is making his own coffee. Then, when he leaves work, he drives in his posh car, to his posh house, and plays with his adorable children. You know Shane....SOME of us have real work and real lives.

If you aren't laughing then you should be. I am chock full of sarcasm. And no, Shane has NONE of those posh things. Well, the part about the adorable children is true.

I have been a bad blogger lately and not updating. Between work, school, and campaign I have just been too tired. My cat barely recognizes me anymore. Pitiful, isn't it?

I did get to see my dear friend Emily last week. She was in town for a family funeral. It was one of those fly-in/fly-out trips so I only got to spend about 15 minutes with her but it made me SO happy to see her. I miss my OCU pals.

I think I am church shopping again. My current house o worship is too small...like 40 in worship, and i need more community than that. i went to a presby church last weekend and not sure where i'm going this wknd. It is so hard to be a liberal, Democratic, feminist, deeply religious person in Oklahoma. Actually, it's probably hard to be those things anywhere. Maybe i should start my own church so then worship would be what I want & think it should be. Hmmmm..

That's the update. Live with it.

Day is done

2006-10-01T21:58:00.000-05:00

The weekend simply flew by and I am exhausted. I started Saturday morning early at the campaign (www.roth4commissioner.com). We sent people out to do lit drops and then Brent and I set up a Roth booth at a local festival. We sat out there from 11:30 till 5 and I was SOOO hot and tired by the time it was over. Sunday was the Oklahoma City AIDS Walk so my co-worker David & I set up a booth for our agency. The turnout for the walk was great this year and we had a lot of fun visiting with folks. I managed to get a little sun and my forehead is pink now. October and I am getting sunburned. Weird. I haven't done much since I got home but plan to get to bed early so I have the energy to make it through Monday. I have the feeling this week is going to be busy.

All hail Queen Bonnie

2006-09-25T00:13:00.000-05:00

The Bonnie Raitt/Keb Mo concert was a-maz-ing. My stepsis drove up and we grabbed our lawn chairs and headed out to the Zoo amphitheatre. The weather was mild and I was concerned about getting cold so we took a blanket in with us. As we were heading toward the gates, I spotted my cousins David and Carolyn, as well as a few friends. Let's just say that Beth and I were amongst the youngest ppl at this concert!!! Keb Mo was soooo good. I had not heard him live before but Beth is a big fan. I will have to hunt down some of his music. Then, Ms. Bonnie Raitt came out and we jammed. I just love her style, her honesty, and her passion. When she did Angel From Montgomery I about melted. Of course, my favorite song is Can't Make you Love Me, which she did very slowly and full of feeling. Yes, it made me cry (just a little). All in all, a most fabulous evening and even better that I got to spend it with Beth.

I HADDDD to go to the fair

2006-09-21T21:21:00.000-05:00

Me being the good kid I am.....lol
After my hair appointment this evening I was driving to Panera Bread to study for a while. I have a final in my Human Diversity class on Saturday. My plan was to study hard for two hours at Panera, come home, relax, and get a good night's sleep.
As I was driving I heard the radio announcer say, "Free tickets to Sunday's Bonnie Raitt concert to anyone who comes by our booth at the State Fair." OH NO!!!! What do I do??? I immediately picked up the phone and called my step-sis (she and I had just discussed this concert two days ago) and I left her a msg. My car somehow magically turned onto the highway and next thing I know I'm pulling into the State Fair parking area. Ok, I think, I'll just go get the tickets and then go study. I get the tickets and my step-sis calls back and we're both way excited. I decided to roam around the building to see if I run into anyone I know so I can have them go get me two more tickets. Well, didn't run into anyone. Then since I was already there I figured I could have supper at the Fair so of course I have an Indian Taco. Fry bread power!!! Yum.
I roam a little more, realize I'm too tired to study, so I hang out at the Fair longer then finally come home (with a bag of cotton candy). My cat likes cotton candy.

I am such a slacker. But I promise I have been studying and I WILL study tomorrow. If my brothers are reading this they are shaking their heads in disgust. What can I say? The tickets were FREEEEEE. I couldn't pass them up.

Dude, where's my sanity?

2006-09-20T22:21:00.000-05:00

Peace of mind is so over-rated.

I have a final on Saturday, for my first social work class. This test is going to be terr-i-ble.

Campaign life is busy busy. To be expected. I am happiest when I am at the campaign though, I do have to admit that one. But, consuming............

Cimarron Alliance. Ugh. Don't get me started.

Work. Actually it's ok at the moment.

Church. Maybe I'll get to go this week.

Laundry. In nice little piles waiting for someone to come along and magically wash.

Cat. got her shaved the other day. she's fuzzy and soft now.

Me. Ok but a little frazzily. Should be studying at the moment.

Oh, I need some good CLEAN jokes. Everyone is sick of my knock knock joke. Email me.

Addiction

2006-09-14T22:53:00.000-05:00

I confess, I have an addiction....well, i have many addictions but here's the latest. I am addicted to Sudoku. LOVE those puzzles. I have been doing them for several months and just can't stop. I even took some to my Cimarron Board meeting last night (because often the meetings are long and tense). Figuring out where the little numbers go occupies my mind and calms me down. I have also started taking them to class. Now mind you, class is from 9-5 on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, so I NEED something to keep me awake. I pay attention, but I have to keep my hands busy or I will get really restless.

In other news............

Wow. No other news to share. All I do is go to work, go to campaign, and attend class. That's it. My life is so dull. Will someone please take pity on me and whisk me away to an island paradise?? Please???? I ask so little of others........

star struck!

2006-09-07T21:44:00.000-05:00

I am just swooning right now! Tonight, the Oklahoma Stonewall Democrats held a fundraiser featuring Kayne Gillaspie of Bravo's Project Runway. Kayne is from Norman, Oklahoma (just a few miles down the road) and has become an instant star due to his success on Project Runway. I was SOOO excited to meet him because I think he's fabulously talented and I want him to win. I bought a piece of art through a silent auction--it's done by Kayne and it's a drawing of a beautiful turquoise gown on a blonde model. It's amazing! He signed it and then wrote a personal inscription to me on the back! I almost fainted. Well, not quite...but I am so giddy right now. I just hope he makes it to top 3 and hopefully wins the overall contest! He said that this piece is an original, one of a kind. Wheeeeeee.......
Ok, so it doesn't take much to amuse me....but this was a great evening.

Is there a "better" way?

2006-08-29T17:34:00.000-05:00

Deaconess Girl raised an interesting thought with me in a comment she left recently. I had blogged about the anniversary of my Mom's death. While I miss my Mom, I feel relatively at peace with her passing. But, I had time to prepare for her death. She had cancer and we didn't know how long she would live. But, she was very determined to keep her life fulfilled and meaningful and I spent a lot of time with her over that year or so. I have no regrets--there was nothing left unsaid or undone in our relationship. I just miss her.

When my friend Deaconess Girl lost her father, it was abruptly--in a tragic accident. I have never experienced loss of a loved one in that manner so I don't have any frame of reference. I think the shock alone would be overwhelming but to then have to deal with personal and communal grief....wow.

All that being said, I don't think there is a "better" way to go. While I got to have time with my Mom, we also saw her go through pain and not-so-pleasant procedures. Those memories are powerful and painful for me.

I think it would be arrogant of me to say one way is better than another because no one experiences loss the same. Grief is a very individual process and no one, but yourself, knows how you truly feel.

I guess what I'm trying to say is it's ok to feel how you feel. And to Deaconess Girl and all my other friends who have experienced loss, that's why we have each other--for support and for care.

Love to all--

Beware of kangaroo

2006-08-28T18:32:00.000-05:00

Today in Oklahoma City, a kangaroo was spotted hopping around the area of NW 229 & Council. Our local paper, the Oklahoman, had a copy of the 911 call on their website. The man calling in prefaced his report with "I'm sane, I'm not crazy, but there's a kangaroo in my street." I laughed so hard! Actually, the 911 operator did too. Three sherrif's deputies followed the kangaroo until its owner was able to capture it.

How awesome would it be to be sitting outside, enjoying your morning coffee, and see a kangaroo hop by? I'd be checking my drink to make sure I was having coffee, but I would probably run for my camera.

Just another Monday in Oklahoma City.......

Remembering Mom...

2006-08-22T14:55:00.000-05:00

Today, August 22nd, is the anniversary of when my Mom died. It's been 5 years and I have mixed emotions. I miss her, that's a given. There's been so much I've wanted to tell her and share with her. I miss her touch, her smile, the clickety-clack of her heels, her singing. But, I am at peace with her passing. There was nothing left undone those many years ago. I just miss her. I was the only one with Mom when she died and that's a powerful memory I will always take with me.

Tonight, I am having friends over for potluck and for games. I decided that I wanted to spend the evening with friends, who are my extended family.

Love you Mom.

What happens in Chicago....

2006-08-21T14:43:00.000-05:00

I had a most fabulous time in Chicago, hanging out with my Young Democrats friends and having a little vacation. I went early so my OCU pal, Shane, and I could hang out and catch up. We spent a day at the Shedd Aquarium and it was great. Don't spend the extra $ for the SpongeBob movie....it's not worth it. The penguins and sea turtles are the best. Shane and I also went to The Melting Pot, a fondue restaurant. I managed not to drop fondue on me so the experience was a success.

This wasn't a regular YD national conference. There was training going on and the DNC was meeting, so I kind of floated around between activities. For the most part, I hung out with friends. I have to say that this was one of my favorite YD meetings in a long time. I adore these YD people---we are like minded, we have lots to talk about, and we just all have a general respect and appreciation for one another. It was so great to laugh.

I have today and Tuesday off then back to work on Wednesday. Classes start Friday so this is the end of free time for me. Wish Jodie and I luck as we scramble to finish our assignment that's due first day. Ack!

Sensational sin

2006-08-13T19:41:00.000-05:00

One of the local mega churches, LifeChurch, has a new crusade going. Around town, there are bumper stickers and signs popping up saying "I've got a secret" with a web address of www.mysecret.tv

I decided to check it out yesterday and was thoroughly disgusted by what I found. Turns out that this website is a place where people can publicly confess their sins (housed under a variety of topics) and voyeurs can read those stories. There is something that says this material isn't appropriate for people under 18, but there's no safeguard to prevent any 'ol user from clicking in. I don't know if the posts are edited before going up on the board, but believe me--there are stories/sins posted that you don't want children to read.

Our state newspaper, the Daily Oklahoman, ran a story on this so I'm sure millions of people are flocking to the site. I just think this is irresponsible use of religion--to post "sin" online for the world to see, instead of making it a matter between a person and God.

Another issue I have are the categories of sin and what is/is not a sin. I think it's safe to say that my understanding of sin is different than what LifeChurch would preach, but hey.....

I've thought about posting on the site just to see what happens but I also don't want to encourage use of that outlet. What do you think I should do?

People are uptight

2006-08-06T15:10:00.000-05:00

I have this very dear friend, he posts here sometimes as "Friendly Bunny." Believe me, you don't want to know UN-Friendly Bunny. :-)

Anyhoo...FB is a huge proponent of the Church of the Flying Spagetti Monster and I decided to do a blog in honor of his beliefs! Personally, I'm a supporter and believer in the Flying Spagetti Monster but so far I have not been able to capture the FSM on film. I don't know that I believe ALL that the FSM spouts, but I know I have been touched by His Noodly Appendage and believe me, my life has been so much better ever since.

When I have a child, she will be raised in the knowledge of evolution, creationism, and monsterism, so she will be well-rounded and have ALL the facts.

I hope you will visit the Church of the Flying Spagetti Monster at www.venganza.org and learn how Pastafarian is sweeping the world.

(Love ya Aaron)

Boomer Sooner Blah

2006-08-04T21:33:00.000-05:00

At the end of this month I am starting classes in the Masters of Social Work program at the University of Oklahoma. OU offers the only MSW in the state so I had no choice but to become a Sooner.
See, I live in Oklahoma--where football is religion and the pigskin is God. Personally, I could care less. I like football and I don't mind watching it, but I don't go to games or get all caught up in the hoopla.
Well, I had figured up what my first semester (2 classes) would cost me and was ok. Today I find out that since I'm in some Advanced Program or something, the cost is HIGHER. Yeah. So, tack another $600 or so to what I anticipated. Not happy. At all. Money is wayyyyy tight in my world right now.
I think the part that irritates me most is that there was never anything said about this program being more expensive than standard tuition so how the heck are we supposed to prepare???

In the past couple of days, two OU football players got busted for apparently being ghost employees of a car dealership, which I guess is against NCAA rules. The players got booted from the football team and people are threatening the stupid car dealership! There have been all these commercials from the dealership pleading for the public to keep shopping at their place and that the OLD ownership is responsible for what happened. Actually, the 2 football players are responsible because they knowingly broke the rules. To their credit, the players and the coach (Bob Stoops) have not layed blame anywhere. The situation was handled appropriately but still--isn't there something more pressing happening in the world than 2 kids who got kickbacks from a car dealership?
Apparently not, since this is what I'm blogging about.

Send tuition money to Princess Rachel, Oklahoma City. Thanks.

Today we remember...

2006-08-03T07:44:00.000-05:00

Today, August 3rd, would have been my father's birthday. He died a long time ago but I always try to honor & remember him on the days of his birth and of his death. Let's see, I guess he would have been 72 today. Happy birthday Dad.

In other news.............
Tonight is our Roth for Commissioner volunteer's meeting. I'm hoping we have a good crowd. Jim has a film crew following him this week so we want a good showing. Of course, we usually have about 50-70 folks at our meetings, which is tremendous, but we especially need that tonight! I tell you, I've never been more proud of a candidate than I am of him.
Oh yeah, our website is www.roth4commissioner.com
Check us out!

that's CHAPLAIN to you

2006-07-26T23:22:00.000-05:00

I guess it's ok to brag on myself a little bit.....

A few months ago I started the application process to be a chaplain within my agency (the Oklahoma Department of Human Services). We are the only state agency that has chaplain's for it's employees and their families. It's a long process (and should be) and last week I was called and offered a spot! Woo hoo! Being a chaplain is an entirely voluntary position and is considered above and beyond my regular duties. I have been assigned to visit DHS employees/families who are in the hospital and in long term care facilities. This is such a great opportunity for ministry! I am very excited. In fact, when I was called and told I was accepted, they gave me my first assignment so I hit the ground running.

I'll still answer to "Rachel," but if you really want my attention you may address me as "Chaplain Morse" or "Chaplain Rachel." Wow. Weird.

McAffrey wins!

2006-07-26T13:35:00.000-05:00

Democrat Al McAffrey won the Democratic primary in Oklahoma House District 88 last night! The incumbent, Debbie Blackburn, was term limited and it was a three way race to fill her seat. Besides being the best candidate, Al makes history because he is the first openly gay person to be elected to statewide office. Woo hoo! I am proud to call him a friend.

duck and cover

2006-07-25T09:38:00.000-05:00

Ah well, it turns out that the guy arrested the other night--had a loaded gun on him. great. makes me feel SOOO much better.

late night in da 'hood

2006-07-23T23:56:00.000-05:00

My cell phones rings at 10:50pm tonight (Sunday) and it's my next door neighbor, Kirk. They only call late when it's important. He tells me not to panic, but there are 5 police cars out in front of our houses. Great. Seems that there is some young guy passed out in our median, the little grassy strip that divides our driveways. Kirk's partner was heading out to his car and hit the unlock button on his keychain. When the car headlights came on, it illumined the passed out dude who was on the grass between our garages. Our driveway's are very long so a person has to be intentional about coming up in them. The fact that this guy was in front of the garage is a little un-nerving.
John & Kirk called the police who responded very quickly. Then, they called me so I wouldn't be scared when I saw the patrol cars pull up. The police arrested the guy, looked to be about 20 years old and obviously drunk and/or high. I watched them pat him down and he didn't have any weapons on him (good) but still......He didn't fight them or anything, the guy could barely stand up. However, there were 6 police cars, all with lights flashing, that arrived. Must be a slow crime night in OKC.
There's a seedy house two doors east of me and ever since they moved in we've had more crime/problems in the neighborhood. I don't know if this guy was from there, but I wouldn't be surprised. What a way to end a Sunday..........

Have I mentioned I'm delicate?

2006-07-20T11:34:00.000-05:00

I'm sitting in my 90+ degree house, waiting on the A/C repair people to call. Yup, it's hot. I don't do well in this hot, humid weather. I feel like my flowers outside---I'm wilting! I often say to people that I'm just too delicate for this weather, AND THEY LAUGH! Um, why do they laugh? I'm completely serious. I AM delicate. It's my dream to move to Alaska and live in the mountains. Every year I ask myself why I stay in Oklahoma because I hate the weather here. Last night I finally broke down and went and stayed in a hotel. I couldn't take one more night of the heat. Let's hope the A/C people can fix it today. Blah.........so YES, I am delicate. Now where did I leave my power sander?

Everything that can go wrong...

2006-07-18T22:24:00.000-05:00

I wonder if my house has gremlins? First, my washer pump goes out. Then, my microwave gets psycho. Refrigerator died, and now my A/C is just not cooling the place. I am freakin roasting in my house right now!! I can't get the temperature below 80, sometimes it's as high as 90 in the house. I can't sleep in this!

In other news........I got the cat shaved today. She just sheds so much and she kept having hairballs so my vet said "shave her!" She looks a little funny, like a sheep that's just been buzzed, but I don't think she's traumatized.

I'm tempted to sleep in the bathtub tonight because the porcelin is cool. If I can't get someone out to look at the AC unit by Friday I'm going to have to find somewhere to stay or get a motel room. Hey....party at Rachel's Motel 6 room!! :-)

Sack o potatos

2006-07-16T23:49:00.000-05:00

I'm having a Dan Quayle moment...I can't remember if it's potatoes or potatos. Ask me if I care......

When I got up this morning I decided to go out to a little country church where a friend is pastor...his name is David. He used to be my pastor at Epworth. Now, he and I had our disagreements and I was in a tough spot because I was Staff/Parish Chair when he left the church. But, David is a very sweet and good guy and for some reason I felt compelled to visit his church. I think it was God nudging me down the highway.......It's a small congregation, maybe 30 in worship. I think it was old-time religion Sunday because we sang the great hymns of I Love to Tell the Story, Victory in Jesus, and We'll Understand it Better By and By. I LOVE the old hymns. This church does a lot of singing, we sang praise music for about 20 minutes.
David's sermon was about forgiveness. Yes, it's important to forgive those who wrong us, but mainly the message was about how we make ourselves accessible (or inaccessible) to granting forgiveness. He also told of an experiment where participants wrote the name of a person that needed to be forgiven, or a grudge/bad feelings were being held. Those names were written on potatoes and then placed in a bag. For a week, the folks had to carry around the heavy sack, laden with the people that needed to be forgiven. By the end of the week, the participants realized the heaviness they were feeling was not only physical but also spiritual. Thus, they learned to be more free with their forgiveness. It was a good message and one I think I needed to hear. Yes, there are people in my life I need to forgive and there are people who need to forgive me. I can't control whether I will be granted forgiveness but I need to make myself open to the possibility.
I often remind myself of a marquee I saw on a local church: He who angers you controls you. My relationship with God is strong but it will be stronger when I quit harboring thoughts and feelings that do nothing but tear me down.

It was a good day.

Way to Go Leader Pelosi!

2006-07-11T15:31:00.000-05:00

News From House Democratic Leader Nancy PelosiH-204, The Capitol, Washington D.C. 20515
http://democraticleader.house.gov
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Contact: Brendan Daly/Jennifer Crider, 202-226-7616
Pelosi: 'Democrats Will Not Support Increasing Congressional Salaries Until We Raise Minimum Wage'
Washington, D.C. - House Democratic Leader Nancy Pelosi released the following statement today on the Republicans' refusal once again to raise the minimum wage. A motion that would have allowed the House to vote on a bill offered by Congressman George Miller of California to increase the minimum wage was defeated by a vote of 214 to 189 along party lines.
"House Republicans have made their staunch opposition to raising the minimum wage quite clear: today they voted against it for the fifth time in less than a month. Yet House Republicans vote themselves a pay raise every year.
"The American people can't afford a Republican Congress that is so out of touch with the concerns of everyday Americans. Gas prices have skyrocketed, health care costs are rising, and too many working families are living paycheck to paycheck. Democrats will not support any increase in Congressional salaries until we raise the minimum wage.
"Democrats believe in a New Direction that will bring economic opportunity to all Americans."
# # #

cursed

2006-07-09T20:23:00.000-05:00

There's something creepy happening here in my house...seems my major appliances have all started to go ka-put. a long time ago my dishwasher started making a very loud annoying noise while washing, but i have always just ignored it and gone on. about a month ago my washer went out...i think it's the pump. then today, my refrigerator died.
i am going to have to get the house blessed or exorcised or something.

sometimes it's a real pain being an adult.

Crispy

2006-07-04T15:39:00.000-05:00

Even though I put on sunscreen, I still burned. My back is bright and getting a little painful. Even though I was already burned, I did spend some time out in my pool this afternoon. It's funny how the little things amuse me............

Basking

2006-07-03T23:24:00.000-05:00

Happy 4th of July! Yes, I realize I should be using a red, white & blue font but you know, I felt like orange. I enjoyed a lovely day off of work today. I spent a bit of time out in the yard, basking in my new pool. Yes, I got a pool! Ok, it's only like 4ft long and 30 inches deep, but hey.....When I was reading the instructions for setting up this thing it stresses that you MUST place it on level ground. Well, there is NO level ground anywhere in my yard. My yard slopes downward and that's just the way it is. So, when I started to fill the pool this morning I figured out really quickly that a sloping pool doesn't work very well. I put about 3 inches of water in it and called it good. Hey, it kept me cool while I worked on a tan. I planted some flowers out front and put up a hanging basket of something purple. It makes the front of the house look so much nicer. The goal is to keep these flowers alive and I do not have a green thumb. If anyone needs me, I'll be by the pool with my sunglasses, water bottle, and SPF 45.

Milk Trucks

2006-06-30T08:58:00.000-05:00

Ok, since Ellie asked, I'm going to tell...(and I don't think I know who Ellie is....reveal thyself).....
Milk trucks gross me out. Do you ever see those big, aluminum refrigerated trucks going down the highway? There's MILK sloshing around in there! Just the thought is revolting....I mean, it's milk just rolling around in that truck. I don't trust that those things are cleaned out and sterilized well. What, they drain out the milk, rinse with water & maybe bleach, and put more milk back in there?

Ok, I admit that I sometimes get obsessed with strange things, but when I see these damn milk trucks I get physically ill.

Here's my solution to the milk truck problem---keep the dairy cows next to the milk processing factory. Bottle the milk right there so it's fresh and THEN ship it across the country.

What if a milk truck has an accident and the milk spills (no crying). The milk is going to curdle and rot and then the area will smell like spoiled milk. Gross.

So, that's my deal on milk trucks. Just say no.

Exposure to the Son Prevents Burning

2006-06-29T17:41:00.000-05:00

Yes, I live in the buckle of the Bible Belt. There are two churches near my house that always have one of these cheesy Jesus messages on their outdoor signs. I don't think I could ever attend one of those churches BECAUSE of those signs. I mean, I find the sayings silly and almost sacrilegious. Whenever I see them, I just want to run the signs over.

This subject gets me riled up and I really don't feel like venting....but if you really want to push my buttons bring up the subject. Oh, the other thing that gets me is milk trucks. Yes, milk trucks. Ask me.

Weekend part 2

2006-06-26T22:27:00.000-05:00

Sunday...........
Like the good kid I am, I got up and went to church on Sunday. Actually, I was excited all week for church because we were doing a Blessing of the Animals. Everyone brought their cats, dogs, hermit crabs, etc. We even had a horse (but it stayed outside during the service). The news of the service generated some media attention so all three news stations were there to film. I packed up Aspasia and she did very well in the service. At the end of services, the owner of the horse brought her over and stuck her head in the doorway so the horse could be part of the blessing.

Sunday afternoon my friends and I went back to the park and I ran around. In addition to the information booth, my org was also doing a dunk tank! All in all I think they went well. The culmination of the day is the parade, which kicked off at 5. We rode on a float and threw cheap plastic beads to the masses of people gathered around 39th street. People go nuts for those damn beads....why is that??

After the parade I went home to change and then met some friends out at a club. We bar hopped but didn't drink....too tired and too hot. I was home by 10:30 and glad to be in my nice cool house.

Happy Pride!

Weekend part 1

2006-06-26T22:22:00.000-05:00

It was a busy weekend and I have the sunburn to prove it!! This was gay pride and I was in charge of pride activities for the Cimarron Alliance Foundation (of which I sit on the board of directors). Visit us at cimarronalliance.org

My friends Dwayne and Christopher came in from Fayetteville for the weekend. They arrived on Fri evening and we tottered off to a party. I decided to be "sober sister" so the boys could drink. We got home LATE and stayed up late, thus I went to sleep about 4:30am. Yeah, not good. I got up about 8 when I realized my phone kept ringing. My co-chair, Ryan, decided to call me about 10 times that morning because since he was awake he thought I should be. Men. Anyhoo....spent the rest of the day down at the park doing an information booth for Cimarron. Had dinner with friends and then crashed while my guests went out to the clubs and didn't stumble in until about 11am on Sunday. hmmmm

To be continued...............

You Might Be a United Methodist If...

2006-06-22T10:01:00.000-05:00

You Might Be A United Methodist If~
you don't take Rolaids when your heart is strangely warmed~
you know that a circuit rider is not an electrical device~
The Upper Room is as essential to your bathroom as the toilet paper~
you felt that the NCAA penalties against SMU football were too harsh~
you've ever owned a pair of cross and flame boxer shorts~
you sit while singing "Stand up, stand up for Jesus"~
you've ever sung a gender-inclusive hymn~tithing is encouraged but widely ignored~
half the people sitting in your pew lip-sync the words to the hymns~
the word apportionment sends a chill down your spine~
you realize pluralism isn't a communicable disease~
your pastor has a hyphenated last name~names like Aldersgate, Asbury, and Epworth are vaguely familiar~
you consider the monthly potluck a sacrament~
the only church camp song you know by heart is "Kum ba yah"~
you've ever attended an Annual Conference and actually enjoyed it~
you have an unexplained yearning to visit Wesley's Chapel in London~
your church is named for a geographical location rather than for a saint~
you've never heard a sermon on Hell and don't feel you're missing out~
you realize that VBS isn't a sexually transmitted disease~
your pastor moves every four or five years and you like it that way~
there's at least one person in every church meeting who says, "But we've never done it that way before"~
your congregation's Christmas pageant includes both boy and girl wise men~
you accept the fact that the hymn "O, for a thousand tongues to sing" has almost as many stanzas as tongues~
you know that the Wesleyan Quadrilateral isn't a trick football play involving four lateral passes~
you realize that the Book of Discipline is not a guide to getting your child to behave~
you understand that an "appointment" has nothing to do with keeping a lunch date~
you think "UMW" stands for United Methodist Women rather than the United Mine Workers~
you know the difference between a "diagonal" minister and a "Diaconal" minister~
"Good morning" has the status of a liturgical greeting in the worship service~
you say "trespasses" instead of "debts" in the Lord's Prayer and have no idea why~
your annual conference spends most of its time debating resolutions that nobody reads~
you'd rather be branded with a hot iron than serve on the Nominating Committee~
you've ever sipped Welch's grape juice out of a plastic shot glass during Communion~
you're asked to donate money to a "special offering" every other Sunday~
you pore over the Conference Journal with the same intensity you would read a John Grisham novel~
you have to fight through a cadre of greeters to get into the sanctuary~
when the worship service lasts for more than one hour, the beeping of watch alarms drowns out the final hymn

Not what I signed up for

2006-06-21T19:46:00.000-05:00

It was a difficult day, to say the least, at work. NO, this is not a post ragging on my supervisor, or co-workers, or spilling great secrets. (So much has been in the news lately about potential employers going online to see what applicants have said about their current jobs & relationships & lives).
See, my title is AIDS Care Coordinator. That title doesn't tell you a whole lot...I know. But, the basis of my job is helping people access medications, a doctor, make sure they have a place to sleep, eat, blah blah blah. Case managers often are called to do a lot of different things and YES, we all know that. But, at one point today, I sat back and said to myself "this is NOT what I signed up for." I accompanied a client to an inpatient type facility and under the guise of going to smoke a cigarette, he bolted. I wasn't surprised, but still....so, three of us spent nearly 2 hours (each) looking for this dude. I was driving up and down streets, peering through alleys, gazing over vacant lots, trying to find him. It would have been unethical for us to NOT look. But jeez.....when did I become Search & Rescue? We didn't find him. I hope he calls. I tell you, if I could ground people I would. You are grounded for 2 weeks young man! Sigh.

That's what it's all about

2006-06-14T19:26:00.000-05:00

As I get older, I'm (unfortunately) becoming more and more like my parents. I find that I talk to myself quite a bit and increasingly talk OUTLOUD to myself. I can be mid-way through a conversation and suddenly realize that I'm the only one in the group huddle. I'm not sure if I should be alarmed about this or not.
This morning as I was walking into work I realized I was talking outloud to myself and I had just uttered "...that's what it's all about." The instant thereafter, I started doing the Hokey Pokey!! Yes, I was standing in the parking garage elevator corridor doing the Hokey Pokey. I remember hearing a comedian or someone famous say once...maybe the Hokey Pokey is what IT'S all about. What is "it?" Who knows....and does it really matter? Maybe doing the HP is what cures the world. I was brave enough to give it a try. Nothing happened but I kind of expected delayed reaction from the universe.

Donate to Team Chi Chi!

2006-06-12T23:29:00.000-05:00

Relay for Life, a project of the American Cancer Society, is a wonderful cause to steer those charitable dollars. This year, my stepsister and her friends are participating in Lawton, Oklahoma's Relay for Life in memory of a very special woman, Shelly Douglass McComber.

Shelly was one of those people you couldn't help but notice. Her smile, her laugh, her southern drawal........Shelly made friends with just about everyone. When she passed in January it broke our hearts because nothing and no one can replace Shelly, aka Chi Chi. Shelly's sister, Stacy, and many of her friends have banded together to walk this year's relay in her honor. Please visit www.acsevents.org/lawtonok and look up Team Chi Chi. You can donate through the website or mail in your contribution. No one, absolutely no one, should have to go through cancer and it's only that much harder when it affects a beautiful woman who was only 35 years old. My prayers and support go out to Shelly's family and friends who seek to honor her in this walk. I especially pray for my stepsister, Beth, who has modeled strength and spirit during the loss of her very dear friend. Love to all..................................

In this very room

2006-06-11T23:06:00.000-05:00

This past Saturday my friend Bekah got married! Yippeeeeee. It was a LOVELY ceremony and she looked amazing. The decor was simple and I could tell that they weren't trying to overshadow the beauty of the church. My one word description is "elegant." Candlelight, dim lights, red roses, and a happy couple. What could be better? The wedding was fun because it was like a reunion of college friends, some I hadn't seen in quite some time. We had a great time visiting and catching up. Several of us went to supper and continued the chatting. I enjoy moments like that....when we can visit, laugh, and remember. Congratulations Bekah & Derek.

Presley drops

2006-06-07T23:13:00.000-05:00

No one is going to care about this post but I'm just so ticked off I have to vent. The past three days have been the filing period for office here in Oklahoma. For the past several months there have been a couple of folks running for the 5th District Congress, which is the area I live in. I have been supporting Patricia Presley who I thought was going to really win this thing and finally put a Dem in office. The other person that is running, Bert Smith, is just not electable for reasons I won't go into. So, today, Ms. Presley freakin drops out of the race. I'm angry. Like, people spent a lot of time and money campaigning for her---she was very electable--she would have been a good Rep. And she drops. I would like my donations back. I'm serious. I put my faith and my $$ into a candidate and they drop for I don't know what reason but it wasn't a good one. I know I know...I get ruffled about strange things.

I'm not wearing underwear today

2006-06-04T22:36:00.000-05:00

I'm not wearing underwear today....no i'm not wearing underwear today. Not that you probably care much about my underwear, still nonetheless i have to say---that i'm not wearing underwear today!!

Ok, so it's a phrase stolen from Avenue Q (it's a musical) and every time I hear the song I crack up laughing.

Now to REAL underwear issues. My washing machine decided to putz out on me over a week ago. I have not had time to call a repair person so I have been unable to wash clothes. I tell ya, I'm getting desparate. I meant to go to the laundromat this weekend but as always, too much going on. As I try to figure out what to wear to work tomorrow, I was pawing through my sock/undies drawer and realized that I have to go to the RESERVE underwear. Come on, you know what I'm talking about....the old pairs that you hate, but you keep around for emergencies. They are too small or too big, ugly, have holes, should have been burned years ago....Yup, that's what I'm talking about. Don't pretend you don't know.

Busy busy busy week ahead but I promised myself I would do laundry. I expect little sleep on Monday but it will get done.

Jimmy Hoffa Wuz Here

2006-05-30T17:09:00.000-05:00

This huge search for Jimmy Hoffa has been amusing. I'm not quite sure what the fuss is all about. Now, out of respect for the dead, I do understand a family's need for closure and such. But, why are the Feds convinced that there is a body to find?? I have no experience in mob killings but I would think that whole body parts would be easy(easier) to find. Hence, make them smaller. Gross. Did anyone see the cupcakes someone was selling in the town where they were searching for Hoffa? The cupcakes had a hand coming up out of the chocolate cake. I laughed.

Calling all Catholics

2006-05-28T00:51:00.000-05:00

Lots of beautiful, handmade rosaries for sale.....e-mail me or respond to this post. Custom designs available.

I have to sell some of these rosaries. Come on people, Jesus needs to hear ya. Give a little shout out to Mother Mary.

Instruction on how to pray the rosary is also included.

Matt Damon is hot

2006-05-28T00:42:00.000-05:00

Does it make me sound like I'm 12 years old if I say Matt Damon is hot? I was flippin channels tonight and Saving Ryan's Privates, I mean Saving Private Ryan was on. Matt Damon is such a cutie.

So, it's Memorial Day weekend and I think I have lost several brain cells. I was trying to remember the purpose of Memorial Day. Is it a vetern thing or a any-deceased-person thing? YES, I took American History and actually got an A. I just can't recall the schlup behind this holiday.

My friend Alexis called tonight. She's having her bachelorette party the first weekend in July and wants me to come to Detroit. Oh Lordy....Her wedding is Labor Day weekend and I'm pretty sure I'm going. I also fear her wrath if I DON'T go. I'm not so sure about the b party though. I better make a lot of money on my garage sale next weekend. Between school, house repairs (damn washing machine and yard), weddings, vacation,....I'm poor.

Life...........

Who inspires you?

2006-05-22T23:18:00.000-05:00

This afternoon I was reading the InSpire magazine, the alumni/ae publication of Princeton Theological Seminary. Each issue they showcase feedback & letters to a question posed in the previous issue. So, this had many stories of who inspired and helped shape these pastors and religious leaders.
It started me thinking (scary, I know) about who my inspirations were/are. So, I pose the question to you--my readers--who has inspired you and how? Family and close friends don't count. Well, of course they count...but we all have an inner circle like that.....
My inspiration from childhood/teenage land are different than my ones from adulthood. Yes, I'll answer my own question but I need some time to think about it.

resolutions

2006-05-17T23:29:00.000-05:00

Is it too late to make my New Year's resolutions? Oh wait, it's May, isn't it? Damn.
Ok, well, I'm making a couple anyway. Maybe I should call them "determinations" instead of "resolutions." I am determined to start singing 30 minutes a day. My voice is just not up to par and I need the outlet that singing provides for me. I am also determined to rid my life of stupid people. No names.
I am not too happy with my Effexor right now. I don't think it's working but I've been on it for a couple of years so maybe it's lost it's oomph. My anxiety level is so freakin high that I say freakin all the time. I've always been a worrier, it's just my nature. But now, my anxiety keeps me up nights and makes my brain race and race and race. It's tiring. I feel like I'm watching the little hampster run circles in my head. Therapy, I know. :-) I think this is why I'm going to MSW school---so I can therapize myself. That's not a word, is it? I want to be a therapist so I can charge as much as mine did. I went to see someone, only gone once so far, and she charged me $105. Jeez. Didn't she see the "social worker" block filled out on my papers? Doesn't $105 seem a little high? I mean, this is OKC. You East Coast people don't get to pipe in on this discussion--you pay too much for everything.
I'm rambling aren't I? I didn't ramble before. I've only started rambling in the past year or so. It's Friendly Bunny's fault--he's ALWAYS rambling. I love him, don't get me wrong, but Bunny can ramble.
See, it's the anxiety talking. I'm wired and I haven't had any caffine since early this afternoon. No coffee. No alcohol and no drugs. Imagine what I would be like if I WERE on alcohol. Oh my.
Ok, I'll sign off because this post is pointless.

Mother's Day

2006-05-14T13:50:00.000-05:00

Just got home from church...being the good kid I am. :-) I find it interesting that the subject of Mom and Mother's Day didn't really come up in the service. I agree that it's basically a holiday created by Hallmark or some other corporate group, but I feel like the Mom's should have been acknowledged or something. I've been asked 3 times today if I have called my Mom. I find it amusing to watch people's reactions when I tell them I don't have a Mom anymore. They get the hint that my Mom is deceased and they just don't know how to react. I want to say, I called her but she just won't answer the phone. That would be mean, wouldn't it? I appreciate my sense of humor even if no one else does.

The client that I blogged about earlier this week....he died Saturday night about 11pm. The family called me and I met them up at the hospital. It was time to turn him over to God and we did that. Services will be in a few weeks. It will be good to remember, laugh, and gather his friends and family together one last time.

You know, I just thought of it....I am a Mom. I am Mommy to a wonderful kitty named Aspasia. It's my day after all! Happy Mother's Day to me.

Need vs. Want

2006-05-13T11:45:00.000-05:00

I NEED a vacation. I WANT sanity. I don't think I'm getting either one. I can't tell you how badly I need some time off/time away from work and *stuff*. Because funds are way low, I can't really go anywhere but I'm thinking of taking several days off and just being at home. I also need to have a garage sale. My anxiety level is sky rocketing and last night I developed an itching condition. Like, it felt like little bugs or something roaming all over me and I about went crazy trying to scratch. Of course, the more I scratched the more I itched. Argghhh...even now just thinking about it makes me itch. Is this what being crazy feels like? Where's the good drugs? I need Xanax.

Strange reality

2006-05-08T23:40:00.000-05:00

I have a hard time taking compliments. Don't analyze that statement, I don't want to hear about it. I'm just stating a fact. And, it's a rare thing that I will talk about what I'm good at (of course, it's much easier to talk about what I'm BAD at). But, I'm going to talk about myself, so there!
As most of my readers (all 5 of you) know, I'm a HIV/AIDS social worker. I've been doing this a long time and was doing caregiving on a volunteer basis even before this. I know, glutton for punishment or something....
There's really no comprehensive job description for what my co-workers and I do. We just do whatever needs to be done. Sometimes, this involves silly mounds of paperwork, referrals to worthless resources, and the endless advocacy for money and medicine.
I can't fathom what it's like to be a client--to allow a case manager/social worker into my life and rely on that person for my life sustaining medications and services. When I stop to think about it, it's fairly humbling. I will freely admit that we sometimes get attached to our clients. After all, we're human. Well, I'm human, I'm not so sure about my other two co-workers.

Over the years I have lost several clients to the disease, it's just part of it all. Right now I have a very dear client ill and in the hospital. A few weeks ago he called me to come over and discuss end of life issues with him. He calmly accepts that this might be the end for him. I admire this person greatly because he has always been outspoken and comfortable with himself as a person living with AIDS. He is intelligent, funny, and loving.
Tonight I visited him in ICU and we chatted just a bit. He's still showing some hope and will to live. I don't know what will happen in the next few days and weeks and I don't dare speculate. But whatever happens, I know he will be at peace because he's at peace with himself and those around him.
Yes, these situations are difficult---for the patient and their families. Yet, I surprise myself. I realized tonight that I am good at what I do. I am calm. My voice radiates compassion and love. I know that the act of "touch" can provide comfort. I am not afraid. I realize that I draw on my inner strength as well as my spiritual foundation and use that strength to minister to my clients. Even though I left the ministry a long time ago, I am still ministering.

The transition from this life to everlasting is an amazing & beautiful journey. That may sound strange but if you have never witnessed transition then you may not understand.
I will grieve if I lose this patient. After all, I AM human. But, my comfort comes from God and yes, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I guess my prayer tonight is a simple one: God be with all those ill and in pain, God be with this client and his family, and God continue to bless me with an open heart and caring hands.

Goodbye, Louis Rukeyser

2006-05-03T00:05:00.000-05:00

I just read in the NY Times online that financial tv show host, Louis Rukeyser, died Tuesday. For many years he was the host of "Wall Street Week" on PBS. I have to admit, I'm kind of sad. You see, in my house, the tv was usually on CNN or PBS. My stepfather was a Wall Street Week junkie. The show aired on Friday night and was replayed at 12:30 on Sunday afternoon. We watched it both times. Every Sunday after church, my stepdad would go by and pick up Broasted Chicken and we would sit around the table to eat. At 12:29 the tv was on. cranked up full volume, and he was glued to the show.
As a teenager I never really got into the show. I mean, come on, they were talking stocks, bonds, and money. I didn't want to know what the dollar did that week--I just wanted to spend it!
However, the theme song to Wall Street Week is a memory stuck in my head. I remember when I was living in New Jersey, I sometimes would get a little homesick. One Sunday I turned on Wall Street Week to hear the theme and I felt better. Memories.......

Go rest high Mr. Rukeyser.

Free at last, free at last!

2006-05-02T23:49:00.000-05:00

First I was afraid, I was petrified....

Ok, no more bad cliches. I freakin passed my statistics final and ended up with a B in the class. I am VERY happy with this score. It was a tough class and I'm glad it's over. I have to say that I did like the professor. He wasn't always the best at explaining the info, but he was so energetic about it. You have to give him points for enthusiasm.

So, I guess this means I'm all set to start my MSW in the fall.

Speaking of school.....my oldest nephew, Brett, graduates high school this spring. It's hard to believe that he's 18. He has decided to go to Seton Hall (that's in South Orange, NJ for those that don't know). Good school. I'm way proud of him. Wow...college. Makes me feel old. :-)

It's strange to not have to study. Jodie & I have spent so much time at Panera and Barnes & Noble this semester. Yes, she passed as well. Yay for us.

Now if only I can win the lottery..........

Stress

2006-04-30T00:27:00.000-05:00

Isn't blue supposed to be a peaceful color? We'll see if it works. I am a stress ball right now. My damn statistics final is on Monday and I am so ready for it to be over. Jodie and I have been studying and reading our little hearts out but we still feel clueless about this junk. I mean, the test is only going to be over chapters 1-22. That's all. Jeez.

I had a dream the other night that I was being a counselor at church camp though I was still studying for the stats exam. In the dream, my grandmother died & my mom came to camp to get me. We go to my grandmother's funeral and in the midst of all the mourning I realize I just can't take the exam. I ask my mother, a professor, to write me a note for my professor, but she says no!! She tells me that nothing should get in the way of my education and to go ahead and take the test.
Now, there are a couple of things wrong with this dream. First of all, my grandmother has been gone for a LONG time and my mom has been gone for a while too. It's kind of strange to dream about them. Second, if someone in my family passes away, screw the test! And three....ok, there is no other point to make. My dreams are just bizarre.

My anxiety level is high but I am TRYING not to go completely shizzle. I've been in this insomnia cycle for about 2 1/2 months now and am really tired of it. It would be nice to get more than 4 hours of sleep at night.

Once the test is over Jodie and I are "unwinding." That means alcohol.

Wish me luck!

Jesus Hops

2006-04-16T15:41:00.000-05:00

It's Easter...like the good kid I pretend to be, I went to church this morning. It was a decent service although the pianist stays about 2 beats ahead of the congregation. Drives me nuts.

Anyhoo----I ended up sleeping alllll day Saturday. I mean, ALL day. I went to bed about 3am Sat morning and woke up at 8 pm Saturday evening. I guess I was really tired. When I sleep hard like that I tend to have vivid dreams. The one I really remember relates to Easter and Jesus and all that jazz. I dreamed that Jesus was dressed up in a Bunny suit and that song "Jesus Walks" by Kanye West was playing.....only it was "Jesus Hops." In part of the dream I was in church and they rolled in this huge tiered cake and Jesus bursts through (bunny suit on) as we're singing Christ The Lord is Risen Today.

Strange, strange dream..........No, I wasn't drinking. Lol.

Happy Easter folks!